Sometimes I wish I followed through more; followed through with ambitions and dreams and followed through on simple things like THIS BLOG! It's so ironic that I so often feel a need for some place to go to be myself. It's here, right here, all set up and ready to go! I hope that I remember that more often then not in the next days and months and years to come. I've said YES to so many things recently that I would have been too intimidated by in the past. I'm proud of myself & ready to document it along the way so that I can look forward to saying yes over and over again to GOD and for GOD!
Who knew that shortly after my last post almost a year ago, I would be expecting another child again. Two days after my 27th birthday celebration in which I celebrated a new pregnancy, I lost that dream. My pregnancy was no longer real. God had surrounded me in the months prior with the people and words that I needed to make it through losing a baby.
Just days after celebrating Christmas, Jesus' birth, I celebrated another pregnancy. My heart was full again & positive that this baby would come into our world and be celebrated and cherished. God had a different plan for our family. I know that He wouldn't give just to take away, I'm still hurting, but as I heal I feel myself more hungry for His love and more thirsty for His word then I ever have before. That is what God asks from us as we go through trials.
Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.
JAMES 1:2-8
Join me as I take the next year to memorize James and see what God has to teach me through this time.
